Thursday, April 29, 2010

Dishes...and my soon to be new window....

Dishes is really not one of my favorite things to do, but seriously whose is it?? Well, I actually enjoy doing the dishes at my in laws. Whether it was doing them upstairs or downstairs...both sinks had a window to look out into the woods. You could see the various small critters come out of the woods...then my imagination runs wild and thinks...oooo it'd be cool if a coyote or deer or something cool would come out of those woods and pounce on the small critters, then I could video tape it and send it into the National Geographic and be put on tv and I could be famous!!! Ok, so my imagintion gets a little crazy sometimes!! lol!! But you get to see the sun, the sunset, the change in clouds, or a storm come in. It can be peaceful washing dishes there. Now, at home, I just have a blank white wall to stare at and think to myself, ''how did that spot get there on the wall? it wasn't there the other day...sheesh, look at those webs...boy, I should clean that light above the sink, it's pretty dusty.'' Yeah, not all that exciting, so I thought, maybe I could just take a sledge hammer and just make a window. But then I would just be looking at the stairs to the upstairs neighbors...maybe I should paint a picture of a beautiful sunset with a coyote attacking a rabbit...then I can enjoy washing dishes! :)

Just for fun~ Humor and Funny Quotes :)

We can't take life too serious all the time...we need to laugh!! If I didn't have laughter in my life, I'd be a dried, shriveled up ol' prune!! I came across some humor and funny quotes today and had to laugh and share just some of the many quotes I came across. So I hope you enjoy, and if not, oh well...I found them to be funny...lol!!

Humor quotes:
If you could choose one characteristic that would get you through life, choose a sense of humor. ~Jennifer Jones
A person without a sense of humor is like a wagon without springs. It's jolted by every pebble on the road. ~Henry Beecher
A sense of humor...is needed armor. Joy is one's heart and some laughter on one's lips is a sign that the person deep down has a pretty good grasp of life. ~ Huge Sidey
Common sense and a sense of humor are the same thing moving at different speeds. A sense of humor is just common sense, dancing. ~William Jones

Funny Quotes:
A hospital bed is like a parked taxi with the meter running. ~Groucho Marx
All right everyone, line up alphabetically according to your height. ~Casey Stangel
Always end the name of your child with a vowel, so that when you yell, the name will carry. ~Bill Cosby
As I get older, I just prefer to knit ~Tracy Ullman
Be able to go shopping for a bathing suit and not become depressed. ~Marilyn vos Savant
I don't need you to remind me of my age, I have a bladder to do that for me. ~Stephen Fry
I looked up my family tree and found out I was the sap. ~Rodney Dangerfield

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Some Good News!

First off, I am happy to report that Jason's mom's dog had been found Monday afternoon!! I was so relieved and so was she!
Secondly, my poison ivy never spread and I only had two ticks on me and they weren't on my feet :) YAY!!
Thirdly, we made it home safely yesterday morning. We had a nice visit with Jason's family and were thankful for the opportunity to have gone. I know we all made more fun memories that we will cherish.
Fourthly, I can once again blog from my phone :) I was having issues of not being able to blog from my phone ever since I blogged from a computer...but I think I got it now :)
Anyways, today I was being lazy and skipped school for the day, just to give us one more day to recooperate...well, that's my excuse anyways for not really wanting to do school ;) So I cut my aunts grass and our grass today instead.
Well, this is a short post, cuz now I am off to the library to print up a resume for Jason. He has a job offer, so we are praying that things work out to where he would be able to get the job...please be praying! Thanks!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Last Game Night

Last night was our last night of playing games with Jason's brother and wife. We always look forward to playing games with them, and so we have been playing every night since they have been here. Last night for our final night, we each picked a game to play. We played Phase 10 Twist, Hit The Deck, Settlers Citites and Knights, and Dutch Blitz. Even though it was a late night, we had a lot of fun and laughs.
Today we are packing up and ready to head home. I am actually blogging from a computer for the second time ever! So I found it fitting to add color and italics to my post :) Don't it look soo beautiful??? lol!!
We all have had a lot of fun and had fun making more memories. We are all sad to be leaving tonight, but we know the time will come again for more visits. I just am not looking forward to the long drive home...well, I'll be sleeping so Iguess it doesn't matter :)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Keeping Busy

There definately hasn't been dull moment while on vacation, but when is there ever a dull moment with our family? :) So far we have enjoyed our time with Jason's parents and his brother and family. Today is our first rainy wet day...so today is a Wii day for the 8 kids!
Our first day here it was just our family, and the kids had to do everything from jumping on the trampoline, riding the four wheeler or mule, driving the mule, going to the lake, swimming in the pond...and much more. The biggest attraction has been the chicks. There are four of them and now all have names which I have no clue what they are. The next day consisted of swimming again in the pond, playing with the chicks, the many dogs, trampoline, driving the mule and so on.
Wednesday, we had the oportunity to meet Jason's brother and family at Silver Dollar City in Branson, MO. It's a theme park in which the kids had a blast at! My sister in law and I were the first ones to go on the water rides with the kids, but that was ok, cuz by the middle of the afternoon we were dry and then it was the guys' turn to take the kids on the water rides and they were still wet by the time we left :) It was a fun day.
Thursday the kids went swimming in the lake while Jason and I were having a rock skipping contest and well since I am writing this and he can't protest....I RULE at skipping rocks...hehehehe!!! Later, Jason's brother and family came to his parents to stay to finish out our time here, so the house has been filled with 8 kids :)
I have been running, jogging, or walking every morning. The first day I thought my lungs were going to collaps from the fresh air intake! They are doing much better, I may now be getting shin splints from running on the gravel road vs. a treadmill...what next? Well, my mother in law has an outside dog and her dog and our dog would run with me every morning. Well, yesterday morning, I went for a jog again and the dogs came with. Well, they took off into the woods and six hours later Hunter came back limping and Jason's mom's dog has yet to come back. This morning his mom posted a flyer at the post office :( We have feared the worst...
For the last 4 days, Jason's mom has been trying to capture the critter that has been eating her chickens. She has set the trap and the darn critter has had a feast with the hotdogs and corndogs but no critter had been caught. Yesterday, Jason had adjusted the trap and lo and behold, this morning there he was, a big, fat racoon! So it was layed to rest with a bullet and thrown into the wood burner :)
Anyways, the sun is coming out and the kids are anxious, so it is time to go outside!! Oh yeah, even though I have been very cautious...I woke up this morning with poison ivy on my leg and hand...joy!!!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

How much is this trip ''really'' gonna cost us??

I think I am going to try and remember to pack the plastic bubble for me before we leave for our trip!! Cuz in the end, our trip usually doubles in cost by the time we get back! In 2002 was my first major outbreak to poison ivy. Some of you know that I have lymphademia in both my feet and have had it since I was 11. Anyways, because of it, my feet are at high risk of infections. Well, that year in 2002, we just had gotten back from, I wanna say camping...anyhow, it was sooo bad on my legs that my legs became infected with cellulitus to the point where I couldn't walk I was in soo much pain and my foot was soo red. Cellulitus is a blood infection. I was almost hospitalized...they gave me a set of shots in my arms because I was like sooo not getting it in the butt! A few days later I had to go in for another set of shots, once again in the arms, they thought I was crazy! Finally the infection was beginning to heal.
Well, last year we went to Arkansas and while down there I one morning found a tick in between my toes. I was scared, cuz I already knew the outcome! On the way home I realized I had poison ivy on my feet! We got home and I thought I would just wait it out. But between the tick bite and poison ivy, I knew I was in trouble. The familiar redness and pain was beginning. I thought I would avoid all the pain and get treated right away. Even after I told the doctors what it was, they still gave me two different kinds of medicine that DID NOT work!! My foot was getting worse and the redness was moving up my leg! I finally called a lymphademia specialist, they couldn't get me in for 3 weeks, I said, ''My foot is gonna fall off in 3 weeks!!'' So I at least asked them what medication they would suggest. So by the time I went back to the doctor for the third time, my foot was so red and I couldn't walk and once in the doctors office I almost passed out that they had to give me something. That time they FINALLY listened to me!! And I got the shots again, yep, in the arms. Both incidents were long recoveries.
So this time, no shorts, no sandals, no dog in bed with us (cuz he carries the poison ivy from running in the woods). I'm pullin' out the bubble!!

Goggles

The boys just recently bought new goggles with their money and are excited to use them while down in Arkansas. Well yesterday was a long day. I had helped Jason at work last night and after picking up the kids from my sister's house, it was 10pm by the time we got home. So as the kids were getting ready for bed, I hear Jason and Jesse talking in our room and then I hear Jason dying of laughter!! I had nooo clue what the conversation was about. Jesse comes out to the livingroom and I asked him what was so funny. He started smiling and said, ''you know that thing you wear?'' and he kinda touched my chest somewhat and I looked at him strangely and he said, ''you know the thing that covers your nimbles,''....oh my gosh I about died with laughter...so I stopped him and went to Jason to find out what on earth he was talking about!! Well, when Jason was done talking to Jesse, Jesse was about to walk out the door and he said to him, ''don't forget to take your goggles with you''. Jesse had no clue what he was talking about. I had my bra air drying hanging on our door handle in our room. And Jesse said, ''where?'' and Jason said, ''right there, on the door''. Jesse finally realized what he was talking about and gave Jason a goofy look and said, ''there not goggles!!'' and he threw my bra at Jason and told him that they were HIS goggles!! So glad to know that my under garments can be such entertainment... :\

Friday, April 16, 2010

The rush is on!!

We always look forward to that day when we finally have the opportunity to go on a vacation. Our vacations usually just consists of one destination these days...Arkansas!! We like to go camping as well, but it hasn't worked out in several years. So Arkansas here we come!! We are all super excited, we will be visiting Jason's parents and his brother and family. Jason will try and get in as much fishing as he can, the kids will have a blast playing outside with their cousins, swimming, feeding the chickens with grandma and grandpa, jumping on the trampoline, driving the mule, helping split and stack wood, and sooo much more!! Usually my mother-in-law sets aside a mom's afternoon out for lunch day...I will be looking forward to that :) A few years ago, Jason's mom had treated our family to a theme park called Silver Dollar City...the kids had a blast!! This time my brother-in-law's family was given season passes to the same theme park with a free ticket for each pass...sooo they are giving us the free tickets so our two families can go together next week!! :)
So anyways, back to why I chose the title to this post...packing is never fun!! Trying to get everything ready...the boat, fishing poles, switching boat motors, washed clothes, packed suitcases, dog stuff, SOME toys, run to the store for food, clean car, make sure we have dramamine THIS time!! Ya always feel rushed to get things done so ya can get outta here and let the vacation begin, but it really never begins till we get down there, even then we may rest for a few hours and then unpack the car and then head five miles to the marina and launch the boat. The vacation for Jason and I never really begins til the next day. We always drive through the night, that way traffic is better and the kids sleep! So the first day we are dead tired...Jason does most of the 10-12 hour drive, I ''try'' and help drive...I go through spurts when I feel awake and am like, ''I'll drive,'' but then an hour later I'm munchin' on snacks, window down, music up, rubbing my eyes, all just to stay awake!! I start seeing double and am like, ''I can't drive, I am sooo tired!,'' and Jason's like, ''You only drove an hour!'' I know, sad, I'm not much help...hahaha!!
Anyways, tonight I am going to help Jason finish up at work, so he can be done so we can start packing and all that fun last minute rushing around stuff. My sister is watching the kids for us tonight, which will be a great help! Tomorrow will be a busy day, but exciting too just knowing we finally can get away and hopefully relax and come back refreshed!!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

My favorite part of my mornings...

I am NOT a morning person!! I will try to procrastinate lying in bed as long as the kids allow! :) But my favorite time in the morning is when the kids begin to wake up one by one and crawl into bed with me and cuddle. I love my morning cuddles with each of the kids. It's short lived because then they all want to be by me and there is just one of me :) I love to tickle them and hear their laughter! I then say, ''I'm getting up,'' and you'll hear squeals of protest. Now, I can look at that in two different ways, 1) they love me so much and want to continue the morning quality time with mom or 2) they know that once mom gets up, school begins. I'd like to think it's the first reason...hahahaha!! Like I said, it's short lived because then the arguing begins over who gets to lay next to mom next and it's another typical day. I treasure those mornings when they first wake up, because as they get older, the morning cuddles will end, with my kids anyways...I enjoy my husbands cuddles even more ;)

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Times

Sorry for the once again, many posts in one day. So much goes on in a day. Some days I have nothing to share, then other days I have too much to share :)
Once again, I am drawn to the music and it's meaning. As I am still sitting here watching the guys cut down our tree, I am listening to Tenth Avenue North. I've heard this song many times, but somedays the songs you hear over and over take meaning during different times of the hour, day, week or month. I sometimes wonder, when will God say, ''enough is enough, I'm done seeing you fall''? The day He shed His blood for us and the day we had accepted Him as our Lord and Savior we had been washed clean of our sin. His love is never ending. We make mistakes, we repent and turn to Him. We continue to strive to live for Him, yes, we may slip and fall, but He is there to pick us up and love us.
I like this song. It reminds me that through all my mistakes and through my storms in life, He is there for me.

Times ~Tenth Avenue North

I know I need You
I need to love You
I'd love to see You but it's been so long

I long to feel You
I feel this need for You
I need to hear You
Is that so wrong?

Now You pull me near You
When we're close I fear You
Still I'm afraid to tell You all that I've done

Are you done forgiving?
Can You look past my pretending?
I'm so tired of defending what I've become
What have I become?

But I hear You say
My love is over
It's underneath
It's inside
It's in between

The times you doubt me
And when you can't feel
The times you question
Is this for real?

The times that you're broken
The times that you mend
The times you hate me
The times that you bend

My love is over
It's underneath
It's inside
It's in between

The times that you're healing
And when your heart breaks
The times that you feel like you've fallen from grace

The times that you're hurting
The times that you heal
The times you go hungry and are tempted to steal

In times of confusion
In chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow under the weight of your shame

I'm there in your heart-ache
I'm there through the storm
My love I will keep you by my power alone

I don't care where you've fallen or where
you have been
I'll never forsake you
My love never ends
It never ends

CrAzY KiDs!!

I think I have some pretty wild and crazy kids!! There is NEVER a dull moment in our house! I know there are many moms who can say the same about their own :)
Last week some friends of mine came over and one of my friends had bought the kids sombreros. They thought it was the best thing ever!! When it was the older boys' turn to walk the dog outside, they had to wear the sombreros outside too. Quite a site :)
The next day I had taken the kids to my parents house so I could surprise my husband with lunch. Jacob couldn't part with his Superman pj's, so with pj's and sombrero hats on, we were off to my parents!
This morning we've got Christmas music playing, a little boy who loves his character underwear so he puts on 6 pair! Another boy who thought it would be funny to wear 7 tshirts to look silly. A little girl who can't part with her Strawberry Shortcake shoes that are two sizes too small.
Now as I write this, all four are being entertained by watching our tree get cut down. :)
Anyways the stories continue :) In all the craziness, I love my kids and love that they make me laugh.
I am gonna watch out the window too :)

Verses

I wanted to share a few verses, one that a friend gave to me yesterday and a few that I need to read for reminders everyday. There are days were I tend to focus on my past failures and it just brings me down. I finally pick myself up and turn on praise and worship music to help get my focus back on Him and I love reading about God's love for me. The first verses were given to me by my friend, she has been such an encouragement to me, again I am thankful for friends.
Ezekiel 36:25-27
''25)Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you. 26)A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. 27)And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statues, and ye shall keep my judgements, and do them.''

Psalms 24
''1)The earth is the Lord's, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein. 2)For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods. 3)Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place? 4)He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor swrn deceitfully. 5)He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation. 6)This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah. 7)Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be lifted up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. 8)Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle. 9)Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. 10)Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.''

Psalms 51:10
''Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.''

Saturday, April 10, 2010

A fun surprise! :)

I had it all planned out, I would surprise Jason with lunch at work :) I called up my mom yesterday and asked if she could help out by watching the kids, thankfully it worked out to where she was able to. I was nervous today, cuz I never know when Jason is going to eat his lunch. So I was hoping that I'd make it...which I did :) He was surprised as I brought us both lunch and told him that my mom was watching the kids so we could have lunch together...well, and accompanied by a shaperone...hahahaha...his brother worked with him today, which I was unaware of, so I felt bad for not getting him lunch too. Course he had to hassel me about it :)
Anyways, it was a fun surprise. My mom ended up surprising my kids to McDonalds!! They had a blast playing on the indoor playground and playing air hockey.
Now we are home and I am gonna take a nap with Jacob...I feel like a slug now :)

Friday, April 9, 2010

Which mask shall I wear today???

A close friend of mine called me this afternoon and we had a nice conversation. One thing in our conversation that stuck out was about who we really are inside and how we display ourselves around others. This friend of mine and another friend of ours, we three have been close friends for years. Over the years we still remain friends, still get together and talk. But do we really talk? My one friend and I today realized that we just touch the surface of each other's lives cuz that's all we have time for. We on the outside try to make things look like our lives are splendid and that we are holding things together well.
This year has changed, certian things have come up in one of our lives, which has opened the door to deeper conversations that are more heartfelt. I love my friends, but we now can feel free to take off the masks and truly share what's going on in our lives. We better know how to pray for each other and our struggles in life.
A song came to my mind after I had gotten off the phone with my friend. It is so true. We go to church and we act like life is going great. We give the quick ''hi, how are you...oh doing good'' type convo with the people at church and never really share what's truly going on, well, cuz we feel rushed to get the kids, get home and make lunch. That's me all the way! I sometimes feel that, ''well, no one really wants to know how I truly am, so, I'll just give the typicall answer they wanna hear.'' Well, I pray, that I can be who I am and not feel that I must wear a mask.

Stained Glass Masquerade ~Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everythings okay
If I make them believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtian
Our stained glass masquerade

Is there anybody who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the alter for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dare to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Hello Sunshine

Hello Sunshine ~Barlow Girl

Hello sunshine, it's been too long since
I've felt your beautiful warmth upon my face
And how much have I missed because
I've been focused on everything wrong
This road just felt so long
I forgot to lift my head and see you

Oh my lovely
Shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty

Hello sunshine, since the moment
That I felt your beautiful warmth
I knew that I'd do anything to keep this
Feeling of you my heart comes alive
Oh who could add a day to the life
By dreading every dark sky

Oh my lovely
Shining for me
So let my eyes see all the beauty

Fill my dark skies
Make me see why
Life is fine so bring in the sunshine
Let in the sunshine

Sing Me a Love Song

Sing Me a Love Song ~Barlow Girl

The tension is thick in the air making it hard to see
The fear of what is to come and what will become of me
I say a prayer, help me not run away
Will You please hold me?

And sing me a love song again
Say the words that heal my heart
Sing me a love song and then
Let Your words remind me who I am

You never failed me before, why do I feel betrayed?
If I cose my heart to You now
The darkness would have its way
I crave Your voice, help me not fall away
Will You please hold me?

And sing me a love song again
Say the words that heal my heart
Sing me a love song and then
Let Your words remind me who I am

'Cause You are all I need
And all that I want is You with me

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Desert Song

Desert Song ~Hillsong

This my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

God is My Strength!!

Isaiah 26:3,4 ''Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the Lord for ever: for in the Lord JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:''
When my mind is not on God, I am weak and fall. I feel vulnerable and tempted. My mind wanders and thoughts of loneliness, helplessness, emptiness, weakness, worthlessness fills my head. Instead of looking to Him, I allow satan to beat me up and tear me down. When I think all has failed, I hear that voice and feel His hand reach for mine. He pulls me out of that pit of dispair. He lifts me up, builds me up, strengthens me, loves me for who I am. He turns my head so my eyes are fixed upon Him.
This past week, I've come to realize that I can't do things on my own. Yes, I need God's help for sure, but I have realized I need help from others to keep me accountable. My family and friends are God's blessings to me. I know that if I am struggling I can go to God, my husband and a few friends. Today I received a prayer email from a friend. She prayed for me and my struggles and so much more. It touched my heart and brought me to tears. I am thankful for the friends that God has brought into my life.
I want to become more like Christ. To do that I need to read His Word and live it. When I feel down, I need to turn my eyes upon my Lord and Savior. I have found over the years, that listening to praise and worship helps to keep my mind on Him. I love music :)

Monday, April 5, 2010

A quick recap of the past few days...

It's been a busy weekend of just being lazy!! Saturday I started the day out bright and early at noon. Then because I started the day out so early, I needed an afternoon nap. Later, I took Jessica to a friends house for the afternoon for a birthday party. It was such a nice windy day, perfect for kite flying, so I took the boys to a park to fly Jesse's favorite kite. It started out being the ''best day ever'' with the kite soaring high in the sky!! Jesse was lovin' it. Joshua thought he'd give it a go, so up and away the kite soared...even higher!! Then the dreaded thing happened, the string broke at the base of the kite. Watching with sinking hearts, the kite floated down into the tree tops :( Jesse was devastated...I felt helpless, but what can ya do? Life moves on... :\
That evening it was time to color eggs only for Jason to discover that the dye tablets were crushed and the colors were mixed together...that's what I get for buying them at the dollar store. So after a quick Walmart run, the kids were coloring there dozen eggs. Jacob was so excited that he finished his dozen before the other kids could get through half of theirs! They all had fun!
Sunday, as we all know, was the celebration of Jesus' ressurection!! The morning began with the kids excitingly getting up to splurge into their Easter baskets and stuff their faces with candy...that was breakfast :) Then was the egg hunt. Every year when the kids are real little, Jason would tie fishing line to an egg so that the kids would try and get the mysterious moving egg. Well, it was Jacob's year :) I wanted to record it so I could upload it to facebook, but the older kids were in the way, so I didn't get it, but it was still funny. The rest of the day consisted of peparing a ham dinner with all the sides, homemade bread, followed by homemade chocolate pie. Watched Jessica and Jacob play outside, draw on the sidewalk, blow bubbles and ride bikes. Then the old folks (Jason and I) took a nap, then we played card games with Joshua while the other kids played on the Wii or computer. It was just a nice relaxing day.
Today consisted already with exercising, getting badgered by Jillian Michaels and the Wii board questioning my why I gained a bit and reminding me that I haven't been on in a few days...I can't the abuse!!! Too much candy and not enough exercise...
Now I am working on pushing two lessons a day with the kids so that we can have a summer break! They are not getting an Easter break because at the end of this month we will be going to Arkansas for two weeks!!! Can't wait!!
Well, I better get off and get something accomplished with school :\ joy....

Friday, April 2, 2010

True Sacrifice

Isaiah 53:3-6 ''He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and aquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, sitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.''

He was beaten, mocked, spat upon, a crown of thorns impressed upon His head for who and why? For me? For us? He loves us? He took the weight of my sin because He loves a wretched sinner like me. He gave us a free will to choose Him or not to choose Him. Why would He die for us when He knew not all would choose Him? He loves us. I still fall, but I am washed by His blood. It's hard to believe that I am found spotless, pure, and clean before His eyes when I still sin. But because I chose Him, accepted Him as my Lord and Savior, I am washed of my sins.
I know I have already posted this song, but I am going to post it again, why? because I love this song and well..because I can ;)

Hallelujah ~Tenth Avenue North

At first I am afraid
But not because of fear
But the holy of holies is drawing me near
Your voice like thunder
Shakes the ground I'm on

HIDE MY FACE IN THE SHADOW OF
YOUR WINGS, OH LORD
HIDE MY SIN FROM THE BEAUTY HERE
BEFORE YOUR THRONE

HALLELUJAH FOR THE BLOOD OF THE
LAMB THAT WAS SLAIN
HALLELUJAH FOR THE BLOOD OF THE
LAMB THAT WAS SLAIN
AND SO WE ENTER IN TO SEE YOUR FACE
ENTER IN TO SEE YOUR FACE, OH GOD

I'm falling to my knees
I feel the earth beneath
With the weight of my sin and this
crushing unbelief
Could You really love me
With all that I've done?

You spread Your hands
And made a refuge for the weak
And blessed the weary bruised and broken
Took us in
Inside Your wounds we hide away
Inside Your wounds we hide

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Friends

It's amazing how spending time with a friend can make you feel filled. Lately I feel like I have been riding that emotional roller coaster. It's nice to get together with friends who ride that same roller coaster. It's nice to be able to encourage each other and build each other up.
So today has been a good day. I thank the Lord for the friends that he has placed in my life.